Again and again

Q : What is wrong in our relationship?

 A : He always not around every night and
 whenever he is around always with his handphone
 check out facebook, whatsapps instragram bla bla blaa.

Arghhhh!!!!

U know what we only talked less than 5 min a day.

Could u imagine our situation?

shida and her bundle of joy

Just went back from my friend's house, Shida situated at Bandar Baru Klang.  She just had a baby boy recently.

Oh i was so excited to see them but in the same time i envied her happiness.

I want to be pregnant. I really do. Hope one day he will change..

spend a lot of time with me and

always take care of me.

to be a fulltime pilot's wife

In a car conversation few weeks back, I was curious and ask him the occupation of his friend's wife. He kept on silent and told me none of his friend's wife are working. 

I was surprised and kept on thinking. Oh my godness! What I have done. Why am I being so selfish? Why am I not like the other pilot's wife?

Since that day, I made of my mind quitting my job. I just had 3.5 years working experience as civil engineer. I enjoyed every details of my occupation. I have learned a lots to design and supervise some of the buildings and bridges project.

My goal is to be a professional engineer, Ir. Siti Aminah before the age of 30.  In fact, right now i am pursuing my master in Structure to gain and sharpen my knowledge.

He to be honest didn't want me to quit my job now. Maybe after I get pregnant? 

I have a mixed feeling. The most ultimate feeling when i feel that we aren't connecting to each other like before keep on apart. Should i be jealous when I saw he texted a girl in front of me just to say he won a medal? Instead of me why her? Is this a sign also?